noun: passion; plural noun: passions
A strong and barely controllable emotion
A strong feeling of enthusiasm or excitement for something or about doing something
“a woman of impetuous passion”
Picture by me…
I have always considered myself as somewhat excitable, enthusiastic and creative. I feel big emotions, live consciously, and share an infectious enthusiasm for life with my friends and family. If I had to describe my passion, I would say I have a passion for new experiences. There is nothing more exciting to me than discovering an new little town in the middle of the Karoo, have a heated debate that challenges my ideas, or experimenting with a new style of cooking.
Why then have I fallen into such a rut of continuous mundane experiences? Do you ever look at yourself and think “Have I become… boring?” This has been a reoccurring thought that has been plaguing me recently. There seems to be a lack of the joie de vivre that is so intrinsically part of who I am, and now I am on a mission to get it back.
While talking to my best friend last night I came to a realisation. Passion can seldom occur in a vacuum. Don’t get me wrong, the first spark of passion is self contained and comes from within you but in order to maintain that spark and fan it into a blaze, you need people to share in your passions and excitement. For me, being and extroverted exhibitionist, I need an audience (such as you dear reader) to give me feedback and share in my excitement. I need to be engaged and challenged, I need to be applauded and encouraged otherwise my spark quickly burns out.
There greatest thing in the world is to have a person that you can share a passion with and who feeds into your passions. I have found myself becoming friendly with people who display the qualities of passion that I want to foster within myself; eccentric artists, outspoken feminists, unapologetic hedonists, fabulous foodies, guerrilla gardeners… people who mirror the burning embers within me.
This got me onto thinking about who we allow into our lives as friends.
“People think being alone makes you lonely,
but I don’t think that’s true.
Being surrounded by the wrong people is the loneliest thing in the world.”
― Kim Culbertson, The Liberation of Max McTrue
Being a mom to twins means that I have very little time to socialise, by spending the small amounts of time I have with people who don’t make a meaningful contribution in my life means that I have slowly become isolated from my own excitements and passions. Well that ends today! Going forward I am going to actively seek out meaningful interaction, intelligent conversation, and genuine connection because life is too short to live half hearted.
I am going to read good books
I am going to watch art-house movies
I am going to throw dinner parties for interesting people
I am going to find people to eat truffle omelettes with
I am going to draw
I am going to paint
Step up everyone… it is time to live an inspired life, because the alternative is too depressing to even contemplate.